Trust me....

"Mackenzie, I know that your heart is full of pain and anger and a lot of confusion. Together, you and I, we'll get around to some of that while you're here. But I also want you to know that there is more going on than you could imagine or understand, even if I told you. As much as you are able, rest in what trust you have in me, no matter how small, okay? The Shack.

I often wonder if others beside myself struggle with trust. When you've been deeply, painfully hurt by deceit of an unfaithful mate, trust left you a long time ago. I entered my marriage with such innocence. I can remember thinking, upon hearing of a friend from high school getting a divorce because of his wife's adultery, 'Steve may do many things in his life, but cheating on me isn't one of them'. How wrong I was.

What trust I had in people was blown away. The character in The Shack, Mackenzie, also struggles with trust. His daughter murdered, his anger and pain called The Great Sadness. How I can relate to Mack. There are so many key passages of the book that strike my heart, most of them about pain, trust and love. "Trust is the fruit of a relationship in which you know you are loved. Because you do not know that I love you, you cannot trust me".

One of my prayers for along time has been that God help me to build trust in those He sends who are trustworthy. What I underestimated was His building trust in our relationship, God's and mine. That through the testing of my love for Him, He slowly built trust in my heart for a New God.

Its a process of risking and trusting. Is it a risk to trust God? Sometimes. The challenge is to take the leap of faith, listen to Him, and not be so worried of the outcome. I've done it my way for too long, and I've lived on that hamster wheel of life, but no more. Every day, I give to God, to work His will and pray that I'm worthy of the challenges and blessings He's offering.

God is good....God whispers, 'Trust me...'